im back!

hello people!

I havent been updating me blog bcuz, i am on a very short holiday break..i'll be on a very short boring intensive course starting next week.. so i'm spending my time at me real home, good food and to catch up with my family...it's nice u know....

Just a few hrs ago, I read an article in the star newspaper, by xandria ooi. i love her. i think she's smart, and she's damn real..(neway, j'adore the star, i read it everyday religously,not missing each page and column).today's column by xandria is regarding us children taking our family, especially our parents for granted. I couldn't agree more..bcuz i myself have not been nice all the time with my parents..Good thing i read that column. I think most of the time we treat our most loved ones the most disdain.not good ppl! ..no matter how tired, stressful,PMS-ish we're feeling, it is simply UNFAIR to snap at our parents, man. Because it hurts. And it hurts them badly.

xandria writes that the thought of losing them is unbearable. same here...my family is not perfect, i do feel like they make me angry. but i know damn well that i simply cannot live without them. btw, there's no such thing like a PERFECT FAMILY. what we see in other's is simply a perception.look deeper n u'll see they're not perfecct..

we cannot choose our family, but we can choose to make our loved ones feel loved and appreciated..

ok ok, i'm feeling teary-eyed now, so i'll chow..

Till then,
vespervenom

p/s- i just got back from marie digby showcase in 1u, she's so pretty but i could barely see her. i was relying on a fabulous camera of a guy in front of me.

Bad bad week

Yelo!
I no longer have a fridge in my place! Yup..hmm. Well, it's not mine, but I don't know, it was taken WITHOUT my knowledge... I know it's not mine, but that "fridge-owner" just threw my precoius ( and perishable) foods on the sink! A hole..My food was left sprawling and spoiled. Had to throw away those precious burger patties :( and i had to re-stock my foods, ciss!..

So that means I'll have to forkout some moolah to get a fridge. HMM.
As though my budget allows it.

Anyway, last sunday I was at home and ANGRY. I don't know but I was pissed off at everyone and everything-boyfriend and cats are not spared,huhu-for no particular reason, on top of that I was tired, and I have a final paper the next morning.

I miss my bf la :( he's bz :( :(

Oh btw, there's a new kitty surveying my place, smaller than nicole. Nicole is NOT happy with it, huhu. Now she's guarding extra dilligently, she gives that this-is-my-place-dont-u-dare kinda look. Haha..

In No-So-Distant Future...

I'll be graduating sometime next year..I haven't decided what type of job I would land. But I know I want and what I'm going to be-I'm going to be a good worker, yeay! And most importantly, I'm going to be financially independent. I'm going to pay my things on my own..No more urgent call to mak, to ask for some cash for the week :( It bugs me everytime if I have to do that. Huish. Other than that, I want a 5-day a week job, at least 2k pay haha... Then I want to buy a (good) used car, then I can shop more frequently... Ha..
You know, in a a way, I kinda dread the prospect of having to work for the next 30 years or so, but then again that's the way to grow up, be responsible, ... huhu. Even now, I wake up at 7am, and sometimes 9 or 10 is my schedule allows me...
Until it's time to wake up at 6 am from monday till friday, week by week, going through mundane routines, until that time comes, I'm going to baring baring just a for a while....

p/s my mak says that it's not good to sleep a lot. makes you fat...there's some truth I guess...but just so you know, I'm not fat! haha...

Stressful la....

Aiyo. I don'y know where and how to start.. I simply couldn't describe jut how panic I'm feeling deep inside. So damn kalut. Everything is due this week, which happens to be the final week. On top of that I've a major test this friday, haiyo..And I didn't do well in 1 of my papers, and the previous ones. And tomorrow I've a 2hr class of that subject. I'm in trouble. My bad. Ciss.

Scared+anxious+angry+kalut= panic attack

I really shouldn't be writing this now. But I hope I'll feel better my the time I finish up writing this. Yup.

Later

Gluttony, 1 of the 7 sins...

Last monday I had started on my weight-lost programme. I'm aiming to lose 4kg, urgh...that means no more late nite roti telur, no more late supper.Must control intake of rice-but nasi goreng and nasi lemak are so good-.. This thing maybe so cliche, but ladies are forever battling with their body issues. Because most of us wannabe as pretty and skinny as those malnourished models in the mags... hot legs, with perky boobs and butts...Show me a woman who has not an inkling of desire to look like beautiful, there's none, I'm mostly sure of that...

Actually, I know I'm not fat. But I'm not skinny either. In my photos, my thighs, (and the rest of the body, of course) look awesome, just what I want them to look like,you know, slim..I look into the mirror and I see good pair of legs,but when I look down-literally speaking-I think they're horrendous!

So there you go. Healthy and fat-restricting eating from now on. The only major problem is that those fatty foods taste the best, really. So how can I give them up?

Strategies:
I'm a breakfast person, so my future choices must be healthy, low glisemic foods.( Roti telur is a no-no.) **
To have light lunch, and even lighter dinner everyday. Or every other day.
No rice after 3pm**
Most importantly, lets be practical, shall we..

** Exceptions can be made occasionally. Maybe I can have Friday as the cheat day! Hooray..

P/S As I'm writing this I'm thinking of banana-leaf rice... Kanna Curry House, Raju Curry House,and Shal is taking me to Madras Cafe for much-needed blr. I'll be raiding one of these little curry heavens sometime very very soon. Perhaps on Friday ;)

A lovely day, and night ahead..

This morning, woke up with a nice feeling-as how you'd feel on saturdays and sundays- that I can do ( or not) whatever I want. Hmm. For me, if I don't have any plan to go out, that allows for me to shower only in the afternoon.. hehe.. Don't give me that look! cit. But my usually fuss-free feline companion tends to avoid me on dirty mornings, except when she wants her biscuits. Btw,my kitty, her name is nicole. -No I'm not promoting Nicole Scherzinger's solo album.- Her name is really nicole, named after the cutie,stylish and once-jailed nicole richie. I'm a cat person. I'll write more about my cats and their antics later on, next post maybe..

Just an hour ago,my mom came at my place to give me the mermaid-cut black skirt that I'm going to wear for a soiree tonight. Actually,that will be just a few hours from now..I am barely prepared for it. I don't know, I'm just not excited enough to attend it. But I'm still going because all of my sweetest friends are going, so I guess it'll be fun, hopefully.Mind you there's no peer pressure here :) Another reason is that I've acted in the class' amateur-drama. I played as one of the villains, surprise surprise! In the drama, I was the only 'bad' woman, and there are 3 more not-quite-scary-looking guys. But then again it's understandable that I was picked as the only villain woman, because these girls, none of them seem, you know.. bad, or at least naughty, hehe. They're really angels freshly packed and sent from heaven. And I'm not being sarcastic here, mind you, as I think sarcasm is unnecessary -most of the time, that is. So it was nice of them to pick me as a significant role. All of these people in the drama are my buddies, so I don't mind playing the villain. Really. I figured that whatever I am, be it a villain or an angel( maybe next lifetime), I better be a good one, right?

As I'm writing this, nicole is enjoying her afternoon siesta on the laptop bag. I wonder how cats could sleep on and on without getting headaches.. Do kitties suffer from headaches? Do they suffer from any kind of illnesses at all? Maybe sometimes, I guess, but defenitely no headaches :) occasional fever gotten from fighting their territory with another four-legged animals, possible. But other than that, nicole is resting. Envy her. Or I could join her ;)


p/s I wish eceryday is a friday and every tomorrow is a saturday or sunday. If only... nevermind.

p/s 2- you know, some kind of response-feedbacks,comments,even bashings- would be nice...

Vespervenom

You

Do you think you're awesome? How would you describe yourself? Are you pleasant, or downright mean? Perhaps something in between.. I wonder if people around us (or those that really matter-see,my mean streak is already peeking ), if they agree with our self-descriptions-and we're not talking about physicals here, not just yet ;)

Sometimes, we tend to perceive someeone else, as somewhat negatively-inclined.. I wonder if this is really necessary. No I'm not preaching here, mind you, as I'm no angel myself. But I surely hate it how mean we all could be when describing attitude/behaviour/how that fella eats/how that gal "catwalks" to the bus stop/ whatever, when we knew damn well who are we to judge.. I myself have been in this situation. This one girl, I thought what a snob she was! Didn't know her back then. Then, I chatted with her, and she turned out to be normal and quite pleasant! Shame on me, hehe..

I've had a fair amount of first-impression-bitching allright, but now that I'm older, I believe everyone deserves a chance ( or two ), to be given fair judgement, if you may call it. So people, be nice...

As cliche as this may sound, make it a must, people!
More love, less hate.
-Okay, you can hate, or love, once you know him or her, for real..-